I'm done.
I deleted my twitter account. I'll probably delete my fetlife account in the next week or so (I'm never on there, so I don't see the point of keeping it).
I deleted all of my blog posts except the last two; those should explain my decision.
But there's more. A lot more.
I'm sick of being scared. I'm sick of worrying about some unstable lunatic stalking me and trying to hurt me or my children.
I'm sick of watching the woman that became obsessed with my husband slowly infiltrate my closest friendships.
I'm sick of the drama.
I'm sick of all of it.
I want to be a normal person again. I want to spend my time with my real friends, the people that love me for who I am on the inside, not because I'm _sub_girl.
I'm still a pervert. I still want to pursue D/s and learn about myself and push myself to grow and change. I just don't need to do it in a public setting. Not anymore.
Oh, fuck.
ReplyDeleteWe'll miss you!!
This post makes me smile and scares the fuck out of me at the same time.
ReplyDeleteYou are the person I first related to on an emotional level in this weird kink world. We became friends through a simple request from me to re-post a writing that has now been deleted.
I am ecstatically happy that you are finally doing something that ( I hope) will improve things for you and hubs. I know there are other ways we can keep in touch across the oceans, but the selfish part of me is sad you are deleting your accounts and blog.
YOU are the one who convinced me to keep blogging.
YOU are the one who had the balls to tell me to get out there are find a healthier D/s relationship than the one I was in.
YOU are the first person I think of to come to when I have an issue I can't solve on my own.
YOU are the one who helped me through many a bad time.
YOU are the one who gave me enough confidence to become the person I am now.
YOU are the friend I always wish lived closer.
I will miss your online kinky slut presence, but I know this is the best thing for you.
ILY.
I can certainly understand that drama can become overwhelming. Hopefully you can put that in the past and move one, good luck.
ReplyDeleteI love you guys. Those of you that know how to reach me via text/phone/email/etc are welcome to continue to do so. I'm still here, just in a different way.
ReplyDeleteAll the best in future, whatever you choose to do i'm sure you'll be great as you always been. Will miss you though.
ReplyDeleteI just read this. I hope you will see this. I'm crying as I write this. You were my first real kink friend. You saved me when I thought there was no where to go but down. No matter what we have gone through, I love you. I hope that we can continue to be friends and see each other again.
ReplyDeleteYou have inspired my next post...
Don't cry. I just saw this. Of course, we will always be friends. You know how to reach me...
ReplyDelete(Now I'm going to go look at your blog)